Waiting

Waiting and not knowing

I am constantly being reminded that I should be doing something else but for some ingrained reason I put off everything else and just wait. I abhor the fact that I put all my limited time and energy into waiting. I sit at a coffee shop mindlessly reading the paper I picked up in anticipation of he fact that I would be waiting never ever factoring into the equation that I had arrived fifteen minutes before we were supposed to meet. So I sit and wait and hate the fact that I sitting here waiting.